I am furious with myself.
I don’t know what triggered it.
I am angry with myself.
I am angry with the life I have.
I am angry about the life I had and lost.
Anger takes you nowhere.
I understand it, but I cannot stop it.
I look in the rearview mirror.
And see what I used to have.
I know what to do calm myself down.
But I don’t apply it.
It’s stronger than me
Hence these lingering guilty and angry feelings
That increase or decrease.
Depending of on the moment
I hate myself for not handling it properly
Peace and serenity
Lawrence Copyright July 2018