Despite the fact that I do not feel good, I will attempt to write my daily post. I promised myself to write at least one poem and one post per day. Right now I’d rather be in bed covered up with my comforter instead of sitting in front of my computer. I have to set … Continue reading Managed to contain it.
Yesterday, was my visit with to the psychiatrist. I was looking forward to this meeting as I had high expectations. I was hoping to be able to change my treatment and to end this strategy to keep me slightly depressed to avoid potential damaging hypomanic phases. This is killing me slowly as I find myself … Continue reading Trip to the psychiatrist.
I was feeling a bit better this morning despite my uncontrollable anxiety. I took all my prescribed drugs at once without going over my daily allowance. It had a little effect on the anxiety but something nonetheless. Overall I moving in the right direction until I received a letter from my lawyer. The legal proceeding … Continue reading No matter what. There is always something.
We got up early and left ahead of time as we didn’t want to miss this event. It was a first for both us, and were pretty excited about it and didn’t know what to expect. It was a good thing that we left a bit earlier as we faced two long detours as other … Continue reading Walk The Talk, May 2018
It is incredible to witness what depression can do to you. It feels like a court judgment for a crime you haven’t committed and the punishment takes effect immediately. The difference being that this sentencing increases in its intensity and pain, all of it gradually, without knowing when it will stop. I am up to … Continue reading Not able to batlle it.
I have been sleeping for two days in a row now with an occasional hour or so out of bed where I manage to barely write two poems when I am used to writing one poem and regular post daily. I have to accept that there is so much I can fight; being my illness, … Continue reading Down for the count!
Today could be defined as boring, In my case boring is good as I can rest my mind and body. To be honest, my mind doesn’t stop it relentlessly tries to go to dark places, but I fight it with ease when the days are quiet. This is what I meant when I say that … Continue reading Boring but necessary.
Today was a pleasant non-eventful day for anyone who doesn’t suffer from any disorder and functions without medication. But for somebody like me, I have to say that is a great productive day filled with initiative and results. I know it sounds grandiose and when you see what I have done is no great shakes … Continue reading I think I did it!
Today I had an enjoyable lunch with a friend who is specialized in Human Resources. We talked a lot about jobs and opportunities and how much the corporate world has changed in Geneva. Statistics show that most people reject promotions than they accept. A thing unheard of in my time; you would never have dared … Continue reading The stakes are different.
Do we, bipolars, have a different perception of reality and the truth? Or is it just me? It seems that I am never in sync with others’ perceptions on a large or small scale. With my immediate family, it can cause conflict and pain. It makes me feel that whenever we go through an experience … Continue reading Perception and truth